Before I leave, I have a final comment. I know I have mentioned the four leaf clover before, and I have another neat story:
We recently took a trip to Michigan, and although we had a great time, I found myself having a very difficult time (I'm sure that doesn't make a lot of sense). Anyway...this was the first time I really noticed Kaylee struggling a lot. She is so close to her brothers, and they hangout together all the time. However, while we were in Michigan, the boys were off playing with their cousins. It was a group of boys fishing, catching crayfish, looking for snakes, etc. Kaylee was not really into all of that and she was left without someone to play with. My heart just broke for her. Macie would have been right by her side the whole time. I could tell Kaylee was really sad. It really hit her when her younger 3 year old cousin started calling Kaylee her sister. It was so cute, but I could see that it bothered Kaylee. My heart was so heavy and I felt like I could cry all day. I decided to take the dog our for a walk near the hotel. As I was thinking about how crappy our situation was and asking God "the why questions" again, I looked down and there was a four leaf clover at my feet. I bent down to pick it up and next to it was one with five leaves. So I plucked them and took them to the kids. The four leaves always remind me of my four kids. I wasn't sure what to think of the 5 leaves, but none the less, it was neat to find. I love how God places these little reminders in front of me to reassure me that one day all will be well again.
my little reminder that I still have 4 children |