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Hello and welcome to my blog! My name is Amanda Crow. I am a mother of four amazing children: three who are here with me on earth, and one who is awaiting our reunion in heaven. I am a homeschooling mom who embraces the life God has given me.

Friday, October 30, 2009


I've been too exhausted to post anything or to even think lately. I was warned that grief takes a lot out of the body and exhausts all resources to keep you going. This is so unbelievably true! I could drink 3 lattes and still take a nap 20 minutes later. I'm really dreading the time change; I fear that the darkness will usher in a whole new level of exhaustion, depression, and despair. The approaching holidays are also a source of fear and anxiety. This Halloween was very hard, and the thought of Christmas shopping makes me want to vomit!

I did manage to dress up the kids and take them trick-or-treating. It wasn't the most enjoyable of circumstances but I survived. I just really wanted to dress Macie up in something cute and watch her run from house to house getting as much candy as she could. Our family has always treated Halloween as another family holiday. We all get together for soup or chili, hang out by a fire, and watch the kids run around dressed up in cute outfits gorging themselves with candy and sweets. Last year was really funny when Macie and her friend Elaina, decided to change their outfits and put on clown make-up. We walked into the bathroom to find her face completely covered in make-up, which turned out to be nail polish!


Macie's first Halloween

This picture is from this Halloween. Jordan decided that he wanted be Moses, but he complained that the burlap and grey wig were too itchy, so he only wore part to the costume. Carter was going to be the burning bush, but he threw a fit when we tried to put on the costume, so he went as a ninja instead. Kaylee wore Macie's angel costume from last year

This picture was taken on a hayride the week before Halloween.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Macie's tooth

We had the strangest thing happen to us the other day.... The past week has been exceptionally tough on all of us, and we are missing Macie more and more each day. Jordan and Kaylee were outside playing when Kaylee looked down and found this tooth. It is Macie's tooth! She lost it last year about this time and dropped it outside. It was absolutely amazing that Kaylee found this after a year of rain, snow, dirt work, landscaping, etc. It was nice to get a little piece of Macie-even if it is only her tooth.