Remembering Macie Elizabeth: Going crazy....

Friday, January 15, 2010

Going crazy....

Kaylee turned 7 this week (the age Macie was when she died), and I wasn't expecting it to bother me so much....but it did. I look at how young and small Kaylee is, and it's just not fair for a little girl that young to die. There is so much Macie didn't get to see, do, and experience, and I am having a really hard time dealing with that right now. Kaylee gets to celebrate another birthday, but Macie didn't....how is that fair??? I'm scared of loosing Kaylee too. There is just something about the age of 7 that is really freaking me out right now! Just pray for us.....

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Michelle aka MommyJanuary 16, 2010 at 10:09 AM
i pray and think about you guys often. macie is safe and keeping an eye on all of you, including her brothers and sister. and don't think about waht she's missing out on. she's experiencing so much cooler stuff in heaven than she would ever experience here on earth. keep the faith and know that even though you may not physically see her, she's with you always.
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claudine@orphanscry.comJanuary 18, 2010 at 4:44 PM
There aren't words. I wish there were...words to heal and comfort and assure you. God is faithful. I AM praying...and will keep on praying for ALL of you.
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AnonymousJanuary 19, 2010 at 12:29 AM
I am praying for you and Ryan. I wish I knew how to encourage you. Love you. Michelle Witt
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AnonymousJanuary 26, 2010 at 11:01 PM
Amanda, my younger son and I both had a hard time when he passed Daven in age. Through The Compassionate Friends I learned that the emotions we experience during this terrible time of transition are normal for grieving moms and younger siblings. Understanding from those who walked before me gave me hope that these feelings would eventually pass. (BTW, Jon is now 29 years old. Even so, he will always be Daven's little brother.) All of us grieving moms worry about losing another child. Sharing that fear with others who truly understand is good and healthy and brings a measure of comfort. I am walking before you and have learned much from those before me. I offer you my understanding and assure you that life will be good again some day. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other... Mark and I continue to pray daily for Macie's family. Jean
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AnonymousJanuary 31, 2010 at 10:23 AM
You and your family are in my prayers always. I like what Anonymous Jean said - her words make sense - maybe God is talking to you through them - lean on Him as you are doing - don't let go and pray pray pray read your Bible hear Him talking to you - Psalms are wonderful - and remeber this He is coming back soon and this world will fall away but until then one foot in front of the other, continual prayer and enjoy the family you have and thankful for the time you had with Macie - you all are an amazing family May God's love and peace envelope you.
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Macie and her brother, Jordan, (pictured above) were the best of friends. They loved to play outdoors and get as dirty as they could. They enjoyed being "archaeologists." In fact, that is what they were doing during the tragic accident that took her life. Her younger sister, Kaylee (also pictured above) was one of Macie's biggest admirers. They were also the best of friends. Macie's siblings were not just brothers and a sister to her, they were her buddies. Macie is the 2nd born of 4 children. pictured below from left to right are Jordan, Carter, Kaylee, Macie

Macie always wanted to be the best and first for everything. She never had to take a spelling test because she would always ace her pre-test every week in school. She was my child that learned to crawl the earliest, walk and talk the earliest. She was the first to learn how to swing by herself and read. She was also very competitive and loved to race and wrestle her brother. He would never admit it, but she usually won. She also wanted to loose more teeth than her brother (which she succeeded in). If she had a tooth that barely wobbled, she would work on it continuously and yank it out before it was even ready to come out. This helps explain why she spent her last year without any front teeth! Everyone tells me that they will miss her "toothless grin that could light up a room!" We joke (not that is anything funny) and say that she also had to be the first to go to Heaven. She wanted to beat us there so when we arrive she can show us around laughing saying, "I won." In a weird way, she did win. She is experiencing a place beyond our wildest dreams. Although her life was cut short, anything she would miss experiencing down here can't even compare to the glory she is experiencing in Heaven with Jesus! We are the ones suffering a terrible loss and will miss her the rest of our lives!

Macie was a dare-devil. She loved amusement parks and would ride anything she was tall enough for. I will never forget last summer on the Highland Fling at Six Flags. She was yelling, "my head hates it, but I love it!!!!" I think we rode that ride 3 times in a row. She also rode the Screaming Eagle when she was only 5. Her lack of fear is what made her excel at gymnastics. She started her first gymnastics class shortly after her 6th birthday and could barely do a cartwheel, but within 6 months she was doing round-off, back-handsprings by herself. By her 7th birthday she was on the Shooting Stars gymnastics team at the local YMCA. She absolutely LOVED gymnastics and I am going to miss her smiling face bouncing around the gym floor. She was so cute to watch and she was always eager to learn new tricks. I can just see her now in Heaven telling everyone to "watch this, watch me!" I bet she can finally do a back layout and twist that she always wanted to learn.

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